(if your not sure why our 18 month waiting photo looks like a YouTube live stream - there is a giraffe named April who is about to give birth and everyone is waiting to watch it and its gone viral (google it)... to which Jason thought we should recreate that...all credits go to him for this)
Here we are, 18 months of officially waiting. Some of you my remember that our home-study is good for 18 months, which means we have been working on renewing our home-study. Not as big of a process as the initial home-study: refill out/update a handful of papers, get new physicals, our social worker will come back out to our house and it costs $350 to update. When we were told its an average of 18 month wait, we expected that we'd have to renew our home-study so this not surprising to us. While we get our physicals and home visit taken care of, our books will not get pulled which was a huge relief to me.
Last update, which was two months ago, was in from one of our harder days. Honestly, up until recently, harder days seemed to out number the hopeful ones. I mentioned that we put on the calendar day to pain the nursery. My Community Group asked how we were doing in the waiting and I just started crying. Waiting is a weary business you guys. Not that the crying had any reason to why they did, but my Community Group offered to help paint the nursery. So on March 18th, our guest room (only room in the house we haven't painted since moving in) became a nursery with beautiful gray walls. I didn't realize how forward moving that would feel to me. I stood in that room after all the paint supplies were cleaned up and I put the baby items we have been so generously given back in. Felt hope creeping back in again.
With April 6th being our home-study renewal date (sounds better than expiration), we made a point to schedule another forward moving thing for us - getting a crib. So, we went to IKEA this weekend and got our baby a crib. I wanted to get the baby all of the things, in which Jason had to remind me that we can come back to IKEA and don't need to get everything for the baby up to the age of 5 (ha). We've been given lots of baby stuff over the wait, but the crib makes it so real. Cause only babies sleep in cribs! So having a crib doesn't mean anything has changed for us or that there is news but its the whole build it and they will come idea.