Wednesday I mailed off, what I believe to be the last of our paperwork! I keep thinking were forgetting something but that might be just because we've been working on paperwork for months. It didn't feel like "never ending" like a lot of folks described the paperwork. Some just more time than others and it wasn't as large of a stack as I expected (I think I had a doctoral dissertation size in my mind at the start of this). If we are missing something, Bethany will for sure let us know but hopefully that is not the case. We now wait for all the paperwork to be approved, then get assigned to a social worker! Big step forward turning in our paperwork part of our home study! I do not know how long this process is, but hope to find out.
As a celebration, I went my first consignment sales this week. Consignment sales are completely my jam! I don't know how I am going to be able to buy anything in stores after paying such cheap prices at consignment sales! These are the first baby items we have purchased for Baby Windsor. I know its a very long time between now and having our baby home with us, but these small items make it feel more real. That this is actually happening and some day we will have a baby. Paperwork isn't the same as watching a belly grow, theres no constantly reminders of a guaranteed time when we will have a baby. If Im honest, there are days this is harder to accept than others. Friends remind me with comforting words of "You WILL have a baby! Maybe not soon but it WILL happen." And as of this moment, Im okay with having zero control in the timing of this. As in, there is nothing I can do to move this process forward at this point. Paperwork is really all we had "control" over in the timing (even then, somethings were not). Now, after we have been waiting for some months, I may feel very differently about being okay with having zero control in the timing, but today, this peace in the waiting has to be Jesus, other wise it just doesn't make sense, even to me.